Wednesday, October 2, 2013

A Single Grain


   Hope!  The final frontier for many of us.  A space we hold in our hearts where we find sanctuary in tough times.  When the mountains in our life crumble away, and when the beaches vanish into the sea, with one tiny grain of hope we can hang onto some semblance of a future.  Whatever that may be in our minds, it is ours to digest and dissect ours alone to own and interpret.  Hope is a powerful thing and used wisely can sustain us through so much.  However there lies the antagonistic side of such hope.  Held onto for too long and you can be left hopeless and feeling lost in a sea of despair.  So how then do we find a balance?  How do we decide how to best utilize that hope?

 

  You can hang onto that one grain of sand, that piece of hope.  You truly can until your very last breath.  I feel that to do so is not only dignified but an honorable thing to do.  Life is mercurial at best and who knows what can happen.  However if you fixate on that hope, on that one grain, then you run the risk of an even more enormous fall from grace.  If you hang onto nothing else but hope, you are putting it all on the line.  We cannot invest all that we have on that grain.  Some feel we can redefine that hope and put it towards something more productive than that which landed us in such a barren wasteland.  It’s healthy to feel hopeful and as I said, I feel it’s healthy to keep that one grain close to your heart.  That doesn’t mean that what lies within that hope will remain the same.  As we grow and work through the process of loss, grief, sadness, or disaster, we find ourselves fixated on a tiny spec of what we thought, think, or believe can be.  If we sit in that space too long, it can destroy us.  It’s best we acknowledge this grain of hope and we continually analyze it.  Seeing not just where it lies, but what lies beyond that and maybe even redefining what we think, and where we think that powerful thing should be invested.  If you are careful where you invest your hope, it has the potential to build mountains in your heart; vast beaches in your soul.  If you are open and attentive to what is around you, you have the ability to transform what seems impossible into something more tangible.  Hope for lost love often feels like a one way street.  Why not reinvest that and move forward beyond what you thought possible?  Hope for better.  Hope for what you deserve, and hope for equality.  Most of all, hope for the future and whatever it brings to you.  When you hang your hope on what is gone, you are run the risk of watching it fall.  Don’t let it lay stagnant in an empty space.  Harness it, make a choice, and commit to that choice. 
 

  Hope is good, hope is real, but with one grain left, a gentle breeze is enough to blow it away.  If you choose to hang that grain of hope on what has passed, and you do decide to take that gamble, take it to new heights.  Invest that hope with all you have because you know the risk.  You know the odds are stacked against you so focus, be clear, and go forth gracefully with your heart wide open.  Know that if that wind blows you better hang on for if it blows away that grain you must accept that you were wrong.  Go forth with confidence.  Either choice is up to you, but where you put that hope is of utter importance for if your last grain of hope is lost, life is truly less vibrant without that hope.

 

  Hope sometimes feels like the glue that holds it all together.  When those mountains come crashing down it’s hard to imagine that you could ever see such marvels again.  Yet if you listen quietly and invest wisely, you can watch as that one grain grows back into something so vast and beautiful.  There will be times that you hold the soul of another in your hands, like a handful of sand.  When you find yourself there go gently forward.  As the sand falls through your fingers, realize that maybe, just maybe, a single grain will remain in the creases of that hand.  Go forth gently and invest wisely.  Believe in hope, put it where it belongs, and run boldly into tomorrow.  Believe in hope, believe in love, and believe in life.  Make no apologies for where you invest your hope, and run with the wind, not against it.